My Birthday Surprise

After early celebration on 19th, on 20th we do our things.

Before I returned to Setapak, I was just wandering alone,

Msn, Facebook.. Then at around 4 something, I drove back to Setapak.

That time I actually feel a bit moody, because I dint receive any wishes from him.

That time, I knew one thing, we cant force anythings that is not belongs to you.

Even everyday you dream about it, you think about it,

cant means cant.

HOWEVER,

I got a surprise from my dearest house mates!!

I dint expect to celebrate my birthday..

Moreover, it's Sunday. I thought I will only receive wishes from friends.

I'm very happy ..

This DIY birthday card made by Soke Sien, Siew Hie and Siaw Wei.

Originally there is nothing at the front page, the "Happy Birthday" plat was then only added after we ate the birthday cake. It was placed above the birthday cake.

Besides, they also did a power point slide show with a birthday song.

I really surprised and also touching..

My birthday cake.. About 3 quarter ate by me.. *full~*

Then today, at 21:21 sharp, I received a present from 12 people.

It's a red huge watch, very nice. But I dont know if I wear it on my wrist it will look nice.

My room mate and I decided to go to the Masquerade Ball, Dada too..

I'm looking forward to the ball.. haha..

However, He's not coming.. T.T

Lastly, I really want to thanks to all my friends who wished me,

thanks to Him also although his wishes a bit bit late..

thanks to those who have done so hard to surprise me,

made my 21 birthday a meaningful and memorable day I ever have among these 21 years.

I'm really glad to know you all guys!!

Thank you so much! I Love You all!! Muacks!!

Early celebration

Yesterday I slept very tight, from 11 something until 9 something this morning,

these days in order to prepare exam, everyday I almost slept only around 5 hours,

after exam I'm feel a bit boring, I dont know what to do,

lazy to study for the next paper, and these are what I did after I woke up:

Facebook, watch half epi drama, msn, eat lunch, then wander around,

roll myself on my bed.. haha.. Sounds like I'm very free hor..

Then later, around 5 something, we departed from our house and have our dinner outside,

we went to Tenji at Mont Kiara, japanese buffet to celebrate my sister and mine's birthdays.

My sister's birthday is 4 days after mine.

Mum got Tenji's voucher from one of her friends, so it also can be consider as free.

At first I thought that Mont Kiara is a big shopping complex,

when we reached there, I feel a bit surprise where that area is quite similar like Jaya One nearby the UTAR Foundation.

The restaurant is decorated very beautiful, the place is big,

but the food is just ok for me compare to Jogoya..

The dishes are limit, not many things can eat.

This is the look of the Tenji.

The outside view from inside .. My sister shot it..

Me~ deng deng..

Me and my dear sister..

My youngest sister is eating sushi.. She's enjoying..

She loves sushi very much, especially sushi-s with fish eggs..

Me and my youngest sister..

drinking coconut..

After finish eating buffet, we went for a walk.

This the night view of Mont Kiara.

According to mum's friend, at night there will be a lot of people come here.

Because here got a lot of launch bars, clubs, many people like to come here,

gather around, drinks..

Today is 19 March, recently I heard a lot of rumors that this day is the day where the moon is closest to the Earth pass in 18 years,

and the Earth may have some changes.

But seems like we all are safe, nothing change at all..

Hope everything will be fine as always..

Cleverness is not wisdom

Hi!

Finally I've finished my 2 test papers, which I did them very bad.

Especially the Financial Economics I, maybe for William Sue is too easy,

"The questions are quite direct, theory's out, but no need to memories."

When he said this to us, I was kinda relieve at first,

me, and other 2 of my friends, were studying for the whole week in the campus,

we discuss, we try to solve the questions, we try to understand what the contents are talking about, we try to ... We Did A Lot.

And today after the test, it tells me that no matter how much I studied, you will always gg..

Kinda disappointed, but I guess everyone others also having the same feeling like me.

Another test is quite ok for me, just that I dont have enough time to finish the whole paper,

damn it that my mind gone off when I suddenly forgot one of the formula.

and ends up, I cant make it for the second page, although I'd finish the 2nd questions.

AM test 1 out this afternoon. Although I know that I'll get low marks for that paper,

but I realize that I've not ready to accept my low marks compare to the others.

Every time when I see results, that feeling always come to me.

I cant share with others, I dont think that others can understand.

Anyway, congratulations to all my friends!! Teach me ya~~

HIM! We chat a lot recently, in MSN though..

Still, I really hope that we can actually face to face with no feel embarrassment and chat from A to Z. This matter quite bothering me.. how how how??

Actually I'm kinda excited when UTAR Dance Club & Art Club cooperates to organize a Masquerad Ball on 18 of April.

I wanted to go with him. I asked a lot of my friends to join with me,

and most of them are refused to go. RM118 per person is an amount that really heavy for them. I think among the whole AS student, I'm the only one that looking forward to the ball.

HE said he was considering all along, but more the 50% I think he wont go.

I hope my roommate can make it. *Hor, dear.. *

"Cleverness is not wisdom" - Good answering skills or having good results does not means that good attitude or you are an ethical person.

This was quoted by our dearest Dr Chua yesterday,

who was so frustrated and upset with our attendance.

I dont know who is the stupid person who actually bring the MC in front of the lecturer, yet his attendance was signed in the attendance sheet.

and guess what? This is the 3rd cases..

and thanks to him, we all scolded by our dearest lecturer,

and students whose attendance are lower than 80% are not allowed to appeal for this paper anymore.

Very good..

I'm not blaming that person, just that we all should have this kind of common sense..

Before you hand up the MC, make sure your attendance is clear.

Recently, I'm kinda enjoying reading a traveler's blog.. Kennysia.com

How he actually travel around the world, what things that make him so surprise and interesting,

what was happened around him..

So, just drop by and have a look!

My BIG day is coming. I wonder if I will get any surprise? ;p

Him and Family

Today I have my Adv Calculus Test 1.

This morning I took UTAR bus at 0715 and reach campus after 15 mins later,

The campus so quiet, only few students walking around the campus.

I walked straight to the study room, planning to do revision there,

until its time to exam, and most importantly, I MET HIM!!

I got a little excited, but I manage to hide my excitement.

After 2 days revisions, I try my best of the best to do the paper.

It was alright, just that I did a lot of careless mistake.

I got very frustrated when the lecturer announced the answer.

I became to hate myself.

Then, I MET HIM AGAIN!!

Well, he just sat alone there reading his notes. **Gambateh!!

I dont know why am I so different from the others,

maybe from the others point of view, my case is not worst of all.

But I got so annoying when sis called me and start to complain.

What mum did, what qeen did, what fei did, I really really upset.

I want to tell my story to somebody, and I really wish is HIM,

I dont feel to go home this week. All these things make me feel that my home is not a home,

I dont want when I go back I have to face all those things.

Yup, I'm escaping from there.

Random

If you see my previous post, you know what am I bothering about..

Now both of us never talk to each other, its already more than 5 days,

well, I dont know what he think, and I'm being so coward to face him now.

I really hope that our friendship will not be degraded..

Last weekends when I was at home, surprisingly I never talk to any one at home except the maid...

I just sat quietly in the study room, watch my drama, read my FE,

I feel that I am happier when I stay in Setapak than at home..

Today, we went to hear a talk about the Actuary Career, Ms Sophia Ch'ng,

her info is very useful, and quite scaring too..

the way she describe how the insurance company runs their duties,

what kind of knowledge should know if we decided to go for this career,

what kind of personalities and characteristic we must have to be a succeed actuarist,

what kind of skills that we must have,

and the most important thing is, we will have to struggle for about 5 years to adapt the actuary environment.

anyway, the most important thing is I must pass my degree course first...

Haha, tomorrow I'm going to Matta Fair!!

My sister and I plan to go to Taiwan in this coming May sem break..

Cant wait forward to it!! ^o^

喜欢的困扰

这几天我才发现，当我发现我对某某人有好感，

我会去逃避他，因为每次看到他的时候觉得好尴尬，

我不知道要怎么去面对他，

只有打招呼的时候我们才会轻轻的说一声：“Hi!”，

放学了，就说一声：“Bye!”, 只有这样而已。

所以每次这样以后，我们的关系也越来越疏远了，

我也知道这样会让他以为我怎么了，不和他讲话，

对他不友善，还是什么的，

但是我就是这样的一个人，我无法面对我喜欢的人，

只有MSN才可以自由自在地，开心地说话，

也只有这个时候，我们两个之间的关系才是近的。

怎样才会不会发生这样的状况？

我要去旅行……

最近在看一部台湾剧，里面播出的海边超级的漂亮，

让我有想要去旅行的念头，

我想一个人去旅行，

没有人陪伴，自由自在的看另一个世界是什么样子，

想知道那边的环境，了解他们的文化，

也想熟悉他们的生活。

最近的我去找台湾景点的资料，

更让我想冲动地飞到台湾去。

垦丁、台北、日月潭…… 真的很好奇，

但比起好奇，我更想去那里玩乐，放松自己。

最近的我好闷，不知道要做什么，

最不想做的就是读书，真的很烦恼，

在家里也不知道要做什么，

只是上网，看电视剧。

我的生活真的很苦闷，旅行是我唯一最想做的事。

去看不一样的东西，玩我没有玩过的东西，

走我没有去过的地方，看我没有看过的风景，

吃我没有吃过的美食，去体验我没有过的生活。

除了旅行，最近的我也参加了课外活动-游泳。

这个星期周末是我的最后两课了，

我想去射击，虽然我以前在国民服务握过长枪，

可是，我好想试一试短枪，是什么样的感觉。

射击的时候声音大声吗？

这些念头应该不算贪恋吧？

过了二十几年了，想做一些特别的事情，

想尽情地享受着年轻疯狂的时间。

2011 !!!

Chinese New Year 2011 is around the corner!! Everyone is so excited about it,

all of them are preparing to celebrate the cny...

Currently, I'm already a Year 2 Sem 3 Bachelor of Science Actuarial Science UTAR student.

The time flies so fast, and I am still not ready to face the world outside.

I'll go for my internship program at the end of this year.

A lot of my friends had their intern last semester, means last Oct 2010.

Most of them really enjoy their internship life,

how their colleagues treat them, how they supervise them...

I really hope that my future intern program will be as fun as theirs.

So, last year, there's really a lot of things happened.

and of course mostly, are not good.

my family broke up, my studies not going well, our financial problem grows up..

my dad went to the Australia to study further ..

really really miss him so much! He came back to M'sia last Christmas 2010,

and back to Aus at 1st of Jan 2011.

As for me, I not really remember what was happened,

but of course some are still in my mind,

I talked to a friend where we do not keep in touch after the first year of U,

I make some new friends, and I'm kind of crush to one of them..

however I know that my luck in this kind of relationship is always 0,

so I keep it in my heart.

my studies not good, my CGPA drop until below 3.00 ,

and I slowly realize that, this course might not suitable to me,

I know it's too late, so I decided to try my best, stop watching drama during school day,

try to work hard to increase my CGPA.

Recently I sat for one of the professional actuarial science paper - Exam P/1,

and unfortunately fail to pass... That day, my friends (3 girls 3 boys) attend for the exam,

the 3 boys all pass the paper.. Congratz to them..=)

Mm, I dont know what to say dy,

I think I'm not going to enjoy my CNY,

my sister received an email from NUS,

they asked her to sat for an entrance examination on 7 & 8 of Feb...

haiz... No mood now...

Hope HE will see it and comfort me..

I wish u enough..

This is a forward email from my dad, I received it this afternoon...

I wish you enough!

Recently I overheard a Father and daughter in their last moments together at the airport. They had announced the departure.

Standing near the security gate, they hugged and the Father said, 'I love you, and I wish you enough.'

The daughter replied, 'Dad, our life together has been more than enough. Your love is all I ever needed. I wish you enough, too, Dad.'

They kissed and the daughter left. The Father walked over to the window where I was seated. Standing there I could see he wanted and needed to cry... I tried not to intrude on his privacy, but he welcomed me in by asking, 'Did you ever say good-bye to someone knowing it would be forever?'

'Yes, I have,' I replied. 'Forgive me for asking, but why is this a forever good-bye?'.

'I am old, and she lives so far away. I have challenges ahead and the reality is - the next trip back will be for my funeral,' he said.

'When you were saying good-bye, I heard you say, 'I wish you enough.' May I ask what that means?'

He began to smile. 'That's a wish that has been handed down from other generations. My parents used to say it to everyone...' He paused a moment and looked up as if trying to remember it in detail, and he smiled even more. 'When we said, 'I wish you enough,' we were wanting the other person to have a life filled with just enough good things to sustain them.' Then turning toward me, he shared the following as if he were reciting it from memory.

I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright no matter how gray the day may appear.

I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun even more.

I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive and everlasting.

I wish you enough pain so that even the smallest of joys in life may appear bigger....

I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.

I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.

I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final good-bye.

He then began to cry and walked away..

They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them; but then an entire life to forget them.

*Only if you wish send this to the people you will never forget and remember to send it back to the person who sent it to you. If you don't send it to anyone it may mean that you are in such a hurry that you have forgotten your friends.

TAKE TIME TO LIVE....

To all my friends and loved ones,
I WISH YOU ENOUGH.

Lastly, wish all the best for those will sit for few tests next week!! ^^

Crazy Week

This week I was nearly gone crazy!!

3 tests, 2 assignments have to hand up, where we did it last minutes,

and the worst is I dont even know what am I writing in the assignment.

I do not have any confident to get high marks for both assignment..

Monday -

I was so tired as I slept at nearly 1 o'clock something..

and woke up at around 5 something,

the Macro assignment finally done and we passed up it during lecture class..

I really really feel so worry about this assignment,

the next day I'll be sitting for Public Speaking (PB) mid-term test,

and I haven start revising.. God damn there's a lot a lot of things need to read,

need to memorize, although some of the things I'd learned during my foundation year,

but it's 2 years ago, and I almost forgotten what all about...

so I studied till around 1 am then I went fall asleep..

Tuesday -

The day where I hate the most, and it's also the most boring day in this semester..

PB lecture and tutorials and Math Stats lecture..

We all sat for the PB mid-term test, and I think that I fail to score it...

It's kinda simple actually, but some of them I did careless mistakes,

it's over, cant do anything, then during tutorials,

that annoyed tutors tell us our course works marks..

Out of 60 I just got 35.. T.T This time I dunno is my fault or is the tutor strict..

One of my gang got 42.5 out of 60.. so envy of her..

But I have to admit that some of the presentation I know I din do well,

I was so unlucky to get hard topic for my impromptu speech..

guess what's that? "Human Rights"...

This kind of topic, for those whom English very poor like ME,

is unable to elaborate the points and will not speak well without any preparations..

So I think impromptu speech is the part where pull my marks down to the end..

Wednesday -

Craziest day I ever had.. We haven done our Risk Management (RiskM) assign,

I skipped one of the tutor at that morning just to do the assignment,

and yet too many things need to consider..

the worst is, I haven prepared for my next day test, which is Math Stat test 2,

I fail the first test, just got 6 out of 30.. haha...^^|||

that day our internet line also bad like hell.. I have to go to CC just to the assignment

to my friends.. But that day I'm kinda happy, cos one of my friend and I chat in msn,

we were talking about why our friendship is getting 'further'..

We almost did not talk to each other since last few semester..

However, that day I finally voice out my doubt... hehe..

We are kind close again, since we know what's the problems to us.. yeah~

then I din sleep that night to revise my Math Stats test 2..

So tired ~~

Thursday -

My panda eye.. We submitted our RiskM assignment,

then later we sit for the test 2, still, the sufficient statistic killed all of us..

I dont know how to do most of the questions.. I was freaking out...

but then what to do, dunno how to do means dunno..

although we did glanced through the paper beside each of us.. hehe..

then we all start to revising our FSA ...

At night I went to Jun's house to study...Thanks to Jun,

I finally know the EPS calculations...

but by the time I started my car engine to go back,

my car lamp cant switch on again!! I think this is the third time I faced this problems..

And that day was one of my house mates' birthday = Siaw Wei!!

So we actually celebrated her birthday yesterday mid-night at 12am punctual..

So, wish her all the best, and...

**dun la show black face everytime, scared all of us neh~~ ><**

Friday -

I din know that risk management class had cancelled,

I reached school only know.. so went to study room study fsa..

then after loss model class I went cut hair..

hhe.. kinda satisfied my hair cut.. although nothing diff from the previous ..

but I really like it...

Ohya, I also want to thank to Tham Tham for some information he provides to me and some of my friends.. hehe...

Then another sleepless night, and my panda eye is getting darker,

some of my friend asked me whether I din sleep for few days..

I was like : OMG.. is that obvious?! @@

What to do? haven revise finish, dun dare to sleep earlier ah..

So yesterday,

Retest FSA.. really have to thank Tham Tham, his info is very useful...

and Jun also... if not because both of them,

I think I will not be able to do most of the questions..

mm.. I think that's all..

next week will be another crazy week, but is better than this week la...

2 presentations and 1 test.. ==

CHAO!!