That feeling came to me again...

I really really need somebody to tell what's going with me?
No matter how much effort I put in, the results are always dissappointing..
Every time I got the low results for any subject,
the feeling of embarassment will make me dun wan to face those high score students,
the feeling of dissappointed will make me down,
the feeling of upsets will make me feel that all my effort will not come out in good results,
I dont know what to do..

I had this kind of feeling quite often recently.
Since last few sem, I dont know what going on..
I know what I've studied, but when the question paper is in front of me,
I dun know even what the question is asking..
Before that I dun face any this king of problems in my study,
but nowadays, I'm just like those who taught 100 times but still dun understand,
I'm just like those who dun even bother about the studies,
I'm just like those who dun wan past in the exam and let them be..

I really feel embarassing when face my friends,
as I am not who I am before..
I'm now face a lot of problems in my study,
I dont know who I'm going to ask..
I believe that even I asked lecturers or tutors, I'm sure that I still dun understand.
and even I understand at that moment, at the next moment, I will totally forgotten what they told me few seconds ago..

I've told my problems to one of my friend, despite she said I'll do better next time,
but still I cant manage to reach my target..
Although I've told myself so many times that,
I must do better next time..
I wanted to win or beat those who beat me this time,
I wanted to be proud in front of my friends and especially the most important is SHE...
But, I think I'm fated to be a failure in my university's life,
my dream to continue my study in overseas broken..

OMG!! Maths was the subjects that I'm proud of..
and now I started wondering if I've made the wrong choice at the beginning..
Should I just give up?
I've already tired of feeling embarassing and do not dare to face my friends..
as I'm once the one they asked a lot..
I really really dun know what to do...

Does anybody can tell me, what should I do?

老师overuse权利

最近我们一直被老师们骂，我觉得这不是骂，这应该叫做针对……

我们这个学期有个科叫FSA，我不知我们哪里得罪了她，

但是我很肯定的是，她一定要这个机会来说我们，

我不知道我们去上课是为了被她骂，看我们不顺眼，没事就骂一下才爽，

还是她自己最近心情超级不好的，所以找我们来出气。

我要说的是，我们不是出气筒，

而且，不是骂了我们，我们就会被激去读书，拿好的成绩给她看，

我们不是木头人，我们有感情的，难道她就不能用别的方式来教我们吗？

我不是要说她的坏话，但有时候她自己也没有发现自己也有问题，

可以一动也不动的站在礼堂前面，手上拿着等于没拿的麦克风，

然后接下来就是只有嘴巴在动…… ==

我真的觉得她不可思议，更^*&(*&&^*的是，

我们因为写错或是没有写她的姓氏在assignment，

她可以大约用了十五分钟骂我们。

我知道念错或是写错人家的姓其实是件没有礼貌的事，

但是没有到要penalize我们的地步吧……

为什么因为姓氏就要影响到我们的分数呢？

她真的真的超级奇怪咯！

我想补充一下，我真的不想讲她的坏话，

我只是不明白，她为什么做一个老师要做成这样？

心情不好也要有个限制吧，不是找人骂一骂下就会舒服，

就不会想一下被骂的人哦？

各位，如果我有伤到哪位的心，觉得我不应该这样说这位你最敬爱的老师，

我很抱歉，敬请原谅，还有，请不要传出去，

要骂心里骂就好，或者找我来骂，不要到处宣传，谢谢合作！

说些开心事吧！前两天是我爸的生日，

虽然不能跟他庆祝，但我深深地祝福他……

生日快乐！

祝他长命百岁，学业进步，工作顺利！

miss daddy..

这世界上为什么要有这个懒字？

最近的我非常的懒，懒的出门，懒的读书，懒得做assignment，

懒得走，懒得站，懒得起来，什么都懒……

上个Sem，成绩出炉后，心情不是说很好，我退步了！！！

我觉得我不够好，而且我不知道我是怎么了，

读了是读了，但还是不知道为什么考得还是不好，

我看着问题，问题看着我，互相望了很久，结果我还是投降……

现在的我在另一个学期中，就因为这“懒”字，

把我在一开始的几个星期白白的浪费了，

我可以面对着我的电脑好几个小时-- Facebook，追连续剧，

所以现在的我已经有一个摩托的小轮胎在我的腰上（肚腩！！）T.T

我刚刚才发现很多人都有看我的部落格，想借此谢谢各位都有看的人，

其实这里我并没有常常来update，

现在的我，就是因为“懒”，所以才比较少去看看我的部落格。

Dad's now is going well in Australia, recently seldom skype with him,

dunno why, nowadays kinda miss him, and just now,

I jus realised that my cousin, Pei went vacation at Australia,

and she met my dad there! haha..

Dad started his part time job in a restaurant, his course also just started,

he'll be studying 4 days a week, and work twice a week.

I really hope that he will keep it up, and learn a lot of yummy's cake,

then cook for us when he come back.. haha...

I really want to go to Australia very much!!!